what i've earned through lessons learned

The lessons of life that I have learned,
did not come easy and had to be earned.
Because for something different my heart yearned,
A heartfelt longing for change, my stomach churned.

Like many, I did not have an easy life
'twas filled with trouble, toil, uncertainty, strife
it was overwhelmed with worries rife;
a friend one day, then, in your back, a knife

People gave advice, but a second too late
as more and more, I grew in hate
I began to question my inevitable fate
and I didn't think I'd pass (nor did I want) through the pearly gate

Regression, depression, religious concession
I finally gave in, found hope through my confession
that sin and darkness was always my repression
and unbeknown to me, even my obsession

Then my heart was lightened, I began to love
Grace,the only hope I had, when push came to shove
And in my dire need, it fit like a glove
Jesus is life and truth, of all things thereof

-=Diddy=-